The Inquiry of my Mind

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Dear Ms. Andrews,

    

        Throughout this semester I have been given countless opportunities to further develop myself as a writer, and a person. Every piece of writing I created although they are not perfect, I hoped to express who I am and how I analyze the world around me. I hoped to challenge myself and take risks that in the end would not only increase my writing skills, but also help me to create myself. Writing is a part of me. Writing helps me to understand a world that often confuses and scares me. Writing gives me an outlet, a resource, a skill to develop and train, a way of life. Without writing I don’t even think I would understand myself. It has been the one thing I always had to keep me learning and growing. It is the one thing that can easily connect all my interests and make them all one. I can write about anything. It gives me freedom and understanding. Writing gives me a purpose. I used to be a girl who was suicidal. I could have been gone, dead. I am glad I am here. If I would have died I wouldn’t have been able to take such a wonderful class that has allowed me to learn so much about writing, reading, analyzing, and understanding texts that create our world.


        In both English 1101 and 1102 I have been able to dive into the true essence of what writing has to offer. It is no longer just a part of English to me anymore. Writing is now a whole new species. From creating an unique rhetorical analysis, to reflecting on my literary journey, to creating three powerful pieces of text in three different genres, to explaining what I believe and why, to reading and analyzing an amazing book, and finally creating an inquiry project that argues the true objective, I have learned so much about writing. I mean look at all I created! I accomplished so much with writing in only one year of college. The amazing part is that it doesn’t have to end here. It doesn’t have to end ever. Writing never has to end. That is the true beauty of it. As writers we never will stop improving, we never will run out of words to say, and conversations to add to, topics to inquire about, and books to analyze. Writing is limitless, endless, and magical.


        When I think about what I learned this semester I really start to think about how much writing does for us in this world. I think about how it allows us to express ourselves and prosper. I think about how it allows me to learn and tell my story and even more important it gives me a chance to help others. For instance, we learned with the, This I Believe papers that authenticity, vulnerability, and communal relevance is important in our writing. The 'our writing' is the key part there because it doesn’t have to end with that one paper. We can use that knowledge in many other future creations. The great thing about college is that knowledge connects with each other. What we learn has relevance in our futures. With the Into the Wild Analysis we have to realize that there are many more books, articles, and issue out there for us to analyze and add to. When we can write the conversation is never truly over. Sometimes there is no need for an audience when you analyze. Sometimes you can analyze for your own benefits and development. That is the power writing gives us. Finally, with the Curious Researcher and the Inquiry project we learned how to properly research and prepare for a paper, but to me this doesn’t have to just be for a college paper. That kind of knowledge and information can be used for anything. There is so much to inquire and write about. Why does it have to be just for a college paper? That is what I am starting to realize more and more about writing. It is not a chore; it is not just for English or just for school. Writing is for everything and anything you can think of. That is the power of writing. That sums up all the different purposes, tones, genres, rhetorical situations, and much more. That sums up everything because writing is everything, writing is infinite. Everything I did as a writer in this class was not just for this class. It was so that I can truly develop as a person and as a writer, now and for the future.


My Thoughts, as a writer...

Welcome to my mind...

One of the reasons I love writing is because it is a great way to intertwine the way my mind works, my thoughts, my feelings, my beliefs, my inquiries and all my vast amount of interests all together into one. I love the idea of that. When I write I can write about anything and everything. That feeling is amazing. When I try to think of it in an image I think of a neural network like this one ==== >

Neurons connect and communicate with each other in our brains allowing us to function. When I write I think of myself as connecting everything inside me together into many different peices. As I write and continue to learn I will become a better version of myself. 

I really love music as well because I feel it is another great way to write and express yourself in many unqiue and outstanding ways. One of my favorite songs by one of my favorite bands, Paramore is Brick by Boring Brick. I love this song for many reasons, but I really admire the way it makes me feel and what I feel the song means.


Paramore - Brick by Boring Birck Lyrics
She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of the world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her
The angles were all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies

Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba ba da ba ba ha

So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck twelve
Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick
Or the wolf's gonna blow it down

Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
We'll bury the castle, bury the castle

Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic
If it's not real
You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Oh, even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah

Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle

[x2]
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da
Ba da ba ba ba da ba ba
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da
Ba da ba ba ba ba ba ba

Meaning:

I believe that this song is talking about how a girl who has had a horrible and painful past is finally letting go of her dark past "brick by boring brick". The castle symbolizes her childhood when a lot of these depressing and scary experiences happened and in the end of the video you see the little girl drop into the hole because now as an adult she has finally overcome her past.

I love the meaning to this song and it has really inspired my paper "Hidden Potential". I believe my past isn’t something I am very proud of. I was very depressed through most of my past and a lot of the times my past holds me back. I know I have potential now and I am learning to let go of my past and live on for a better future. This song really speaks to me and I feel music is just another great way to use writing.


Paramore When it Rains


Another one of my favorite Paramore songs is "When it Rains"

This song talks about depression specifically and what it feels like to lose someone you love to suicide. I feel so much for this song because I was so close to committing suicide and hurting my family and other people who may care about me. At the time I was in a "black hole" and I felt like I didn't deserve to live. Now I am in a better place and this song means a lot to me. 

The lyrics "Take your time, Take my time." are even more powerful because it is talking about how this person would want to be there for that person, and how they so deeply wanted them to talk to them and take all the time they needed in doing so. It really makes me think about how alone I felt. Now I always think about others and I know that if someone ever needed me I would let them take my time.

Musical lyrics can hold so much power and I love this about writing and I want to one day write my own music, but if I don't get to that I know I will always listen and analyze.


Another thing I really love to do with writing is visit many awesome websites that relate to topics I am interested in like computers, technology, psychology, philosophy, and much more. Then when I do this after what I learned in The Curious Researcher, I can inquire into these specific topics and write and further develop my knowledge and understanding of these amazing topics and then find ways to add to these different unique conversations. With writing there is so many opportunities to grow and develop my skills in not just writing, but everything. 

I also like words and definitions and think it is great for a writer to work on using and understanding amazing words in their writing. Here are a few of my favorite words and their definitions taken from the lovely and amazing dictionary.com.

ataraxia -  a state of freedom from emotional disturbance and anxiety; tranquillity.

annihilation -  the state of being annihilated; extinction; destruction.

compute -  to determine by calculation; reckon; calculate

intrinsically -  belonging to a thing by its very nature

emulate -  to try to equal or excel; imitate with effort to equal or surpass

augment -  to make larger; enlarge in size, number, strength, or extent; increase

rhetorical - used for, belonging to, or concerned with mear style or effect

paradox - a statement or proposition that seems self-contradictory or absurd but in reality expressesa possible truth

knowledge - acquaintance with facts, truths, or principles, as from study or investigation; generalerudition

learn - to acquire knowledge of or skill in by study, instruction, or experience


Anyway I could go on forever, but I LOVE words and their definitions. It is a great thing to want to increase your vocabulary and for a writer it really displays your urgency to produce intelligent pieces.



Books and Movies as Literary Masterpieces


Writing gives me so much ability, but so does reading. When I read I am inspired and learn to think about new things. Then it encourages me to think differently and as a result write differently. Here are some books that I have admire for the way they have made me think during and after I have read them. I love to read books and I am always open to different kind of books to read and I am grateful for that because the more I read, the more I learn, and the more I learn, the better I write.


Movies also have the ability to inspire the way you think, and as a result also affect the way you write; so I have also added a few of my favorite movies that influenced the way I see things in the writing world and how I write today.


I also read a lot of informational books, articles, and much more, but these are just a few of my favorites. Either way all of these have changed the way I thought and help me to connect ideas and overall grow as a person which as a result will help me to become a stronger writer and a better me.


Games as Written Pieces of Art


Even though many people may not believe it, games are also a form of art and writing as well. I have a huge passion and heart for gaming. Gaming has gotten me through tough times and games continue to evolve day by day. Here are some games that I feel in their own unique way were beautifully and awesomely + epically written.

There are so many great written games out there and it would be impossible for me to post them all, but you get the point :)

As a Final Reflection on how I feel about writing...

What does Writing mean to me?

Writing is a tool, a resource, a passion, an art, a technology, writing is life. When I write I feel empowered. When I learn I feel the same way. Then when I can write about what I learn and what I think about it as I reflect upon my literary journeys the feelings of empowerment seem to grow into even stronger bonds and connections. These connections continue to intertwine with each other as I grow and develop, who I am, what I know, what I want to know, and how I am going to get there. It feels great. There is so many ways to write, so many different concepts, topics, and ideas to write about. When I write the possibilities are endless. As long as I continue to develop and learn there will always be more to write about. I love that infinite feeling. It is like PI a number that will never end; it is like love an emotion that never truly subsides. Writing and learning are internal happiness’s that lie within me and that I can feel secure when saying they will never leave me. When I learn, when I inquire, when I grow, when I write as it was said in The Perks of being a Wallflower, I am infinite.


Although this may be the end this is only the beginning of my writing journey...